It was a long, hot Summer

Pixies like myself generally LOVE summer. Heat, humidity, sunlight, fresh fruit dripping its ripeness into the body…warm air means stretchier muscles and deeper yoga asana practice. It means opening, surrendering to slower movement patterns, and languid afternoons of watching light and shadows move across sacred spaces. It means cold-brewed coffee with cinnamon, and ice cream for dinner.

This summer, however, was much MUCH hotter and more humid (and, ironically, dry…so while everything in the air is wet and never-drying, the earth has been screaming in parched depletion), than I have ever remembered. It required a new level of letting go, and ushered in a deep love of peppermint oil blends after cold showers at 9 o’clock in the evening so we could sleep. My  skin was covered in a spectacular mixture of sweat and cat fur, always, everywhere. It was intense.

And we moved through it (my husband and I) one day at a time, one afternoon-in-search-of-AC at a time, one cold-dinner-fresh-salad after another. We learned to just give each other room, to not push too hard on each other’s buttons, and to enjoy early morning walks, or late evening chats.

I have never felt the stagnancy and heaviness of High Summer so much, in so many areas of my life. I stopped moving. I stopped practicing yoga every morning, and I stopped making art, and jewelry. I *sort of* gathered herbs and wild treasures, bringing them home, into our nest, to make it feel like we live in a field (rather than a condo), but it didn’t feel like ME. It felt like everything stopped. I felt my life pause, except that of course, nothing actually stopped. My energy changed, though, big time, and it was so different than anything I have experienced before.

And then, right around Lammas, the energy changed. It unfolded in a subtle way, in poetic and quiet moments of grace: the light is heading into the golden of autumn. The air smells like decay, just a small tiny bit, like the harvest and overripe beauty of gathering in. The energy has moved back around the wheel, into a place of feeling productive, and wanting to clear out clutter from the summer as well as start preserving food and organizing for winter. I am finally feeling more of mySelf.

And I realized, as the past week has unfolded from a place of incredible anxiety to delicious graceful abundant flow, that each year, it’s us who grow and change. It’s my perspective that shifted, somehow, and the change that came was (of course) supported by the weather and turning of the year, but also, the change occurred as I was ready to make it.

We are the only ones who can find the treasures of our lives. We hold all of the power, and we have only to decide to re-align, for life to change. Life is a fascinating dance of claiming our power and our Path, while at the SAME TIME, feeling what our world, our seasons, our relationships, have to offer.

Over the next chunk of time, I hope to write more. I hope to give you some inspiration, some recipes, and maybe even a few moments of, “Oh good, I am not the only one who feels this way.”

Thanks for being with me, on the Way,

Metta

On Containment

On Containment

Each year, sometime in the dark of winter, I choose a focus for the year. I prefer not to choose one word or one goal, but rather, I very intentionally choose a “modus operandi” of sorts…a mantra to touch base with, a lens through which I view my life unfolding.

In recent years, as I have opened and sustained my own business, my words have reflected that: Abundance, Prosperity, Courage, Perseverance…you know the drill. The major things I was looking for became the containers I chose to work through. And that was neat. I developed a strong relationship with non-physical Source energy, and I learned how to let go, stepping into a flow of energy and abundance that sustains me to this day. It felt deeply empowering, and still does.

But then I didn’t know what was next.

I mean, after you attain an understanding of Law of Attraction and start practicing, and you see the dynamic of co-creation unfolding daily in your life, what’s the next place to investigate?

Well obviously, there’s an entire universe to explore. But I wasn’t feeling it.

A conversation with my Mother changed everything. I have an excellent relationship with my blood mother, and she is often the source of incredible perspective and inspiration for me. We were talking about how I stress out about very small things, and really waste energy on big reactions. We talked about the concept of Containment.

Containment is a concept of how I hold my energy and resources. It’s tricky, because to contain, there must be boundaries, but as energetic beings, there is also a simultaneous flow and movement, inherent on every level of existence. So we don’t become hard in our holding of ourselves, or separate from the flow (impossible), but we recognize the wisdom of gathering and resting in a place of fullness. I recognize that I don’t HAVE to react. I don’t HAVE to give, or offer, or play into anyone’s expectations. I can contain mySelf. I can sit back, and watch.

And in the sitting back and watching, I am contented. I am having fun. I am witnessing life unfold, instead of pushing it forward.

So this is my main lesson and exploration for the year. It has started coloring and influencing the quality of my days. I am learning to be OK with Gathering and Holding, rather than Accumulating and then Letting Go. I am investing in quality, rather than quantity. I am taking more deep breaths before reacting. I am not reacting at all.

I am weaving Containment with Contentment and Harmony…knowing that I am nothing without the environment that I am in, and I am never cut off, even when I set boundaries and enjoy them. I am noticing the contrast as Old Patterns come up for healing, and I am blessing them and letting those go.

The interesting part so far, is that with Containment, I am learning what to HOLD ON to, rather than what to let go of, which is the opposite of how I have thought about my self-growth in recent years.

I have wanted to let go of fear, impatience, judgement, lack…all the demons that I imagine keep me small. But what if, instead of focusing on those demons (which keeps them active, and real in my present-self-life), I simply re-tune into what I want to hold on to?

Generosity. Empowerment. Fecundity. Compassion. Connection. Community. Laughter. Love. Service. Devotion.

Can I steep myself in those qualities, saturating my cells with Divinity, until there is simply no-where left for the other things to reside? Can I contain my potential to such a degree, that past-versions simply cease to be?

I’ll keep you posted.

Selah.

 

Winter Skincare Routine

Winter Skincare Routine

I live in  the Northeast of the US. It gets cold. And even though this winter has been extremely mild (I was wearing flip flops 2 weeks ago), it still gets dry, and my pixie-skin gets very very sad. It gets dry, randomly bumpy, and sometimes breaks out in little rashes from who-knows-what.

At least, it did before I learned how to take care of it, and myself, during the cold months. I still get itchy, but it’s not nearly as bad as years when I used to make myself bleed from scratching. I no longer want to claw my skin off! Hooray! So here are my tips and recipes for loving on your winter-skin, and maybe even coming out of the season looking BEAUTIFUL!

  1. The Sugar Scrub: First of all, I know there are approximately 9 million recipes out there for these, so I’m not going to bore you with another one. The template: Mix up a cup or two of plain ol’ white sugar with 5-10 drops of your favorite essential oil (my favorites are lavender and grapefruit in equal amounts, juniper and sage if you’re feeling evergreen-y, and straight up frankincense). Mix in 1-2 T olive or almond oil. Use this mixture to exfoliate AND moisturize your legs, arms, torso…just not on your face, or sensitive bits (gosh could you imagine? No, don’t…yikes…) at least once a week.
  2. Drink a lot of water. Like, half your bodyweight in ounces. Every day. Yes, you will pee a lot, then your bladder will adapt and your skin will stay hydrated. You will look younger. You will lose a bit of weight. It is magic!
  3. Body oil. Every day. And STOP showering every day. Why? Well if you’re like me, you like a nice HOT shower, and hot water dries out the skin. It’s also not good for the hair to get washed every day. Shower every 2-3 days and save your skin, and some water. Instead of your daily shower, wash up your stinky bits with a hot washcloth and soap (my gramma calls these bird baths) and apply body oil every day. Template: Castor oil + Almond Oil + Olive Oil. Castor oil is veeeeeery thick and needs to be thinned. I use 50% castor with 25% each of the other two. I also leave this scentless, so I can add my own essential oil or perfume oil as I want. I also use this stuff on my hair for a couple of hours or overnight, about once a week.
  4. Baking Soda for the Face: You can actually use baking soda on any skin on the body, but I use it on my face at least once a week as an exfoliation. I just use about a teaspoon and rub it onto my wet face, gently scrubbing in small circles. My skin is smooth and lovely afterwards.
  5. To moisturize my face, I either use my body oil blend (castor oil, avocado oil, and almond oil) or I use ozonated olive oil. Ozonated olive oil has been oxygenated and it is amazing for acne, wrinkles, rashes, scars, fungal infections and other skin abrasions. You can use just a tiny amount (less than a pea-sized scoop, it’s solid at room temp) and massage it into the skin. I don’t wear makeup so I don’t know how it wears under makeup, but I can tell you that I look like I’m wearing blush all the time, and people comment on my skin and how it glows.
  6. Eat lots of colors. I know it sounds a little silly, but our skin is the largest organ in our body, and it is an organ of immunity and detoxification. It needs nutrients, especially the fat-soluble vitamins (A,D,E,K), healthy fats, and plenty of vitamin C. Fruits and vegetables as well as nuts and sees give us these nutrients, making these foods daily or weekly contributions to a beautiful body and strong skin.

So I hope all of these little tidbits help you find beautiful skin! Good luck, and stay cozy!

 

Selah.

Pixie

Crystal Page: Pietersite

Crystal Page: Pietersite

So, one of the things a Pixie loves is crystals…gemstones, minerals, semiprecious and precious…all the glittering and rough treasures that the Earth offers us to aid in healing, balancing, and renewing our connections to ourSelves and to Life around us.

I happen to work with gemstones and crystals to make jewelry, and my love affair with them has only deepened over the years of working with them. I remember  the first time  I stepped into a store that heavily stocked these treasures. They were all displayed on a wall, in clear shelving, and that part of the store literally buzzed with a delicious energy that called deeply to me. I needed to touch! I needed to hold, and gaze, and sing and dance and create with these special Beings! So in that vein, I want to start sharing the information I have  gathered and channeled over the years with you, my dear readers.

In the following publications of Crystal Pages, I will examine qualities, energetic properties, and healing methods of different stones. I will offer what insight I can, and I welcome questions and suggestions for more stones to explore!

To begin, I choose a stone called Pietersite, which I only learned about in the past year or so. In that time, it has become indispensible to me in my healing and meditation practices.

Pietersite is a naturally-occurring of Tiger’s Eye, Hawk’s Eye, and Jasper and it is also known as the Tempest stone and Storm stone because it actually protects us from bad weather (especially as we travel). Pietersite provides and amplifies strength and power, and can help us to express and release energy and emotion that had previously been tamped down or repressed.

Physically, Pietersite can help relieve headaches, dizziness, light-headedness, and issues with the brain and central nervous system. It also helps with digestion and breathing issues (think of the vagus nerve, which descends from the brain and innervates both the breathing diaphragm and all the digestive organs). Energetically, this stone aids us in getting “unstuck” and is amazing for people feeling as though they cannot make progress. It also calls forth a sense of confidence and strength, and activates the Solar Plexus and Third Eye chakras.

I personally find that Pietersite helps me keep a clear frame of mind and focus. I feel more protected when I wear it, from other peoples’ energies and thoughts, and I feel more able to discern what the truth of a matter is. It helps me cultivate a sense of inner strength and dignity, and I tend to be more patient with myself and others when I have it on. You can read much more extensively about Pietersite and its correlations to angels and various energies on this site.

How I work with Pietersite:

I wear a mala of Pietersite beads quite often these days. As soon as  I put it around my neck, I feel a settling and soothing of my energy. I use malas in my meditation practice, if  I am practicing mantra. You can meditate with Pietersite as well, simply seated and holding a piece of the stone in your hands, or on the floor in front of you. Ask the stone what it has to teach you and offer you. Ask how you can best use it and respect its vibration and offerings.

I also have a few pieces which go into my pockets when I want to be less obivous with my stone choice. Not that anyone really notices, but sometimes pocket stones are a perfect secret to keep with yourself. Only you know your intention with them, and that you are constantly receiving their support as the day moves on.

I hope that you find these little offerings inspirational and fun! Please let me know if you have a favorite stone that you would like me to feature. There are so many to choose from!

Blessings and Ease,

Selah

Pixie

 

 

 

 

On Creating a New You

On Creating a New You

Each year, “new year’s resolutions” are everywhere. We are admonished and recommended to take stock of the previous year, and to vow certain improvements will be made in the new year. Most of us (all of us?) end up disappointing ourselves a few weeks into January when we fall back into our old behavior and patterns. The fact is, change takes consistent attention and energy, and it can be deeply challenging.

In recent years, I have started to honor the winter Solstice as my New Year, and I like to take time on that day, or right around it, to look at myself and see the shifts I’d like to make. I make this a sacred time, and my vows that I take are for myself only, or for things that affect my husband and family, I will share them with those people, in hopes of creating support and some accountability.

The language is SO important as I make my vows…I don’t say, “I vow to lose 10 pounds.” But I might vow to “treat my body with the respect it deserves, starting with a gratitude practice I check in with, daily.” The difference between these two sentiments is palpable: one is a judgement of where I am right now, and my behavior that put the weight on in the first place. The other, is a gentle shift in the relationship I have with my body. And by deciding to do a gratitude practice daily, I set up a different relationship with ALL aspects of my life.

I don’t make specific rules about how the gratitude practice looks, by the way. If one day I write it down, maybe the next I simply take a deep breath and say Thank You to myself. Or I thank someone else. I thank my body. I thank my patients. I thank my food. Gratitude brings us into a place of peace and freedom, and even worthiness, if we practice long enough.

Something else I heartily recommend and have come to rely on, is drawing oracle cards. This is an easy way to connect with Source energy, but you could also do a nice meditation, or book yourself a Tarot card reading. The main questions are: What is my main lesson for the year? What’s the best way for me to help myself? How can I change and become the best version of myself this year?

When we slow down and listen, we often get answers that ring deeply true, that maybe we haven’t wanted to hear or face in previous years. The reason these things are coming up now, is we are more ready to face them! Along with the answers and information we glean from our highest Self, I also suggest asking for help. Sometimes, the answers we get are overwhelming. This isn’t a reason to ignore the information, but it’s a GREAT reason to expand your support network and get the help you need. It’s easier to do when the answer came from within yourself, so you KNOW it’s not about someone else trying to change you. You will find (as I have) that when we really want to engage in change and ask for help and support, that it comes, often in very unexpected ways.

Lastly, I suggest writing a letter to yourself and burning it. Write about the year, about your successes and failures. Write what you have learned. Write what you might want to change the next time the lesson comes around. Write your goals and dreams and aspirations. Write your vows. Write the bad stuff. Write the good stuff. Then, go outside and light it on fire and let it burn up, in something fire-proof. Light some sage and cleanse out the negative energy. All of it!

When we do this, we get all the pent-up stuff OUT and let it GO in a big way! We are signalling to the universe that we are ready to move on, and it can feel amazing. It’s even nicer to go through this process with other people who can really engage and dig in. The energy you generate with amplify and support everyone’s collective process.

Armed with these tools, I hope you can find your way into an easy and empowering new year! May change come easily and naturally. May you be blessed and content in all the best ways life has to offer.

Selah

Pixie

On Easy Holidays…

On Easy Holidays…

Every year when the winter solstice and Christmas come around, I turn into a ball of tension. My skin crawls in anticipation of forced-encounters, too-much-sugar and the crash that inevitably follows, and the dry skin persisting despite how much castor oil and whatnot I slather on.

Not so this year!

And my sanity is so welcome, and so unexpected, I thought it might benefit my readers to share some of the things I am doing differently this year.

First of all, I started a deep meditation practice, daily. In years past, I have meditated or rested most days, but only for 20-30 minutes. This year, I sit for 45 minutes. It’s time that I carve out (and no, sometimes it’s not easy) so that I can shift my energy and take stock of what I’m working with on any particular day. The meditation gives me infinite gifts, but what I notice most during this time of year is that I am more OK with giving my body what it needs to stay healthy (and to say No to things that don’t serve me). I am also projecting less into the future and more content in my present moment, which makes me easier to be around. I *also* notice that I am more aware of my triggers, and less likely to engage in them. So there’s real change happening for me, and I like it.

Part of the change is that I have distanced myself a LOT from the typical frantic energy. These holy-days are just that: one DAY at a time, when we see family and eat good food. That is all. I am cultivating this perspective so as not to spend time anticipating and second-guessing (which both induce anxiety in me). Rather, I have made ONE list of things that must be finished in order for expectations to be met, and I have scheduled time to meet these expectations.

Normally, I try to keep it all in my head, and just get things done at the last minute. This year, I have been planning ahead just a little more, and wow, it really changes everything. While I plan, I refuse to worry about how it will all work out. It always works out. And if, for some reason, I can’t get all the baking and making done in the time I have, I am OK with going to the store and purchasing whatever I need. I let go of my expectations of MYSELF, as well as of the people around me.

Because of my increased awareness I am also eating more cleanly between holidays. If I eat too much at night, or too much sugar, or too much alcohol, my body rebels in very clear, very uncomfortable ways. So rather than get irritated, I thank my body for it’s clear messages and clean up the decisions I make. For me, this looks like intermittent fasting (I skip breakfast and only eat during an 8 hour window of the day), break my fast with raw fruit, and eat a nice dinner, early. In between the fruit and dinner, I eat a lot of vegetables, nuts and seeds, and avoid animal protein most days. I do eat plenty of fat, and drink plenty of water and tea. I am not denying myself anything…in fact, I feel marvelous! I lost a bit of weight, and when I want to indulge on those holidays, I know  that I can, and I know exactly what the consequences will be! How empowering! I don’t feel as though the holidays are a season to “get through” but rather, bright spots during a cozy stint of the year.

I also decorated my lovely home with homemade ornaments, greenery, and vintage ornaments, to bring in the feeling of cozy warmth to the home. I don’t personally honor Christmas, but Solstice is my new year, and I grew up celebrating Chanukah…so all the holidays of bringing light back into the world feel good to me. I set up a platter with crystals and candles on it, and we light it almost nightly.

All of these little changes and tidbits have resulted in my taking real pleasure in the late autumn and early winter seasons. By feeding my body and soul more consistently, and creating beauty in as many places as possible, I have left the stress and strain out of my heart and mind.

I hope you can find places of peace and light as the year turns again, that you find blessings in all areas of your life.

 

Blessed Be, Selah…

Pixie

Homemade Gifts From the Heart

Nothing says holidays to me like homemade gifts. I find myself deeply appreciating a friend’s time and effort to make me something warm and lovely, regardless of what it is! Intention HUGELY affects the things we offer, and so I wanted to offer YOU some lovely, easy, yummy things you can make with great love, to offer to the ones you hold tight.

First off, spice cake. This recipe is one of my favorites, because it’s not too sweet so I can eat it for breakfast. I tend to be heavy-handed with all the spices, because they are so warming and cozy, but you can also follow the recipe just as is, and it’s perfectly lovely.

Molasses Spice Cake:

INGREDIENTS

  • 2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground mace
  • 1/4 teaspoon freshly ground pepper
  • Pinch of ground cloves
  • 4 large eggs, room temperature, lightly beaten
  • 1/3 cup sour cream, room temperature
  • 1/3 cup unsulfured molasses
  • 3 tablespoons finely grated fresh ginger
  • 1 tablespoon finely grated lemon zest (from 1 to 2 lemons)
  • 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
  • 2 sticks (16 tablespoons) unsalted butter, room temperature, plus more for pans
  • 1 1/3 cups packed light-brown sugar
  • Cream Cheese Frosting

DIRECTIONS

  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Butter a 9-by-2-inch round cake pan. Line bottom with parchment, and butter the parchment.

  2. Whisk together flour, baking powder, salt, and spices in a large bowl. In a medium bowl, whisk eggs, sour cream,molasses, ginger, lemon zest, and vanilla.

  3. Beat butter and sugar with a mixer on medium-high speed until fluffy, about 3 minutes. Reduce speed to low. Beat in flour mixture in three additions, alternating with the sour cream mixture.

  4. Scrape batter into prepared pan, and bake until golden brown and a toothpick inserted into center comes out clean, 40 to 45 minutes. Let cool in pan on a wire rack for 15 minutes. Turn cake out onto rack, remove parchment, and turn right side up. Let cool completely. (Cake can be wrapped tightly in plastic and refrigerated for up to 1 day.)

  5. Spread frosting over top of cake. Drizzle with glaze. Serve immediately.